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Tuesday, November 28, 2006

11:39 PM

first day of work.guess it was not too bad.thank god the people there were not too bad.yeapp pretty nice and all so i guess that is really good otherwise i think i will be having like hell.heh.though i must say my thumbs hurt now because of all the tearing of the tickets but other than that yea it was a pretty good exercise as the only time which we can actually sit down was when we had our break.owells just imagine the damage done by standing up for about 6-7hours yea i think you get the picture.fuck my dad or more like fuck my parents i really do wish they would at least take what i say seriously as this is getting so full of crap.ok pele is here in singapore today yet though knowing how badly i would love to get pele's autograph he chose to get it signed with dear alex instead like seriously what the fuck i mean i have been dying to meet this legend ever since i started to like brazil and it has been how many weeks in which i have been craving to meet him yet he fucking did this.like what i said before you take away my balls i'll take away yours too.urghhh what an ass please.i'm still kinda pissed off that i did not stayover last night i mean seriously what the hell had gotten across my mind at that point in time.funny how that i for once chose work first over my friends.i think i have changed damn this is bad why is everyone changing suddenly i prefer things done old school yet everyone's piorities have changed and all.it kinda gets pretty heart wrenching to find out that things are no longer the same as before.before- something which i really wish would go back and start all over again.if i had a time machine i would wish for us to stay in that innocent young days again where in our eyes our parents were our heroes.funny on how it's the other way these days for me i never seem to get along well with either of my parents yea it gets pretty sad at times but i guess that i am pretty much used to it.thus to my friends it is little surprise on the times in which i would just walk out of the house just to get away from the chaotic life which i am currently living.it really does get very demoralising to be living in a housewhole in which everyone seems to be pressing you down to the floor and appears to be doing all the various things in life that can spite you.yeapp all in all i guess my life really really sucks.owells people welcome to my life.though it really does not seem as though you are so going to like it but owells.i tried.heh

i can touch the sky!

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Monday, November 27, 2006

11:59 PM

texas hold em is teh sexxx!seriously not joking at all.the beginning of my day totally sucked man it seemed as though i totally could not imagine how my day could get any worser.thank god it turned for the better.rina's mom did makeup for me and yes i much say the makeup was really awesome or in fact i absolutely loved it.what pissed me off the most is that my cab fare cost me $8.80 just to get to siglap and if you know where i stay you would say that that is fucking expensive thanks to the bloody fact that i left my phone at home.damn that so totally sucks big time.the room which we got however was unbelievable.totally loved the view.thanks justin!grad was pretty alright though i somehow expected it to be way much better.so we girls did what we did best.CAMERA WHORE <3 yeapp it is teh sex.i guess it is pretty sad that mr jega will no longer be part of the kc family as he is going to be the vp of another school.owells i guess that is pretty good too as that is actually a promotion so congrates man.it was pretty dumb that i was in the school video made by my school.omg i seriously looked so unbelievably different.so super unglam please and it was there.damn i just feel like digging a hole and burying myself now.went to ink earlier that night.damn i so love these kind of upmarket clubs the ambience is just too good to be true though everyone there is technically much older than you but owells we gives a shit as you are just there to have a good time.baileys come to mommy.really sorry guys though that i had to leave much earlier i really feel very bad about it.no worries i shall so make it up to you guys.work starts tomorrow.damn i sure do hope the people there are hot and nice.heh.what a time to actually think of such

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Sunday, November 26, 2006

11:53 PM

today SUCKED!!went to get my nails done but for some reason i must be assigned to some newbie!urgghhh the horror though i must say that she is good with the masks and all but fuck my paint is super easy to come off!it's like just one touch of the stupid shopping bag and i have a mark on my nails.my nails look super fugly now.the horror.that just so totally spoils my day BIG TIME!how the fuck am i to go for my grad tomorrow with ugly nails.ahhh and that bitch of a mom of mine is SO NOT making things any better for me.thanks SO MUCH for coming to my room and throwing empty shopping bags all over my floor.thanks for fucking spraying baygon into my face.thanks for telling my friends that i am NOT home when i so AM!thanks so much for making my life a living hell.like i am SO NOT pissed off enough.ahhh fuck my nails laaah im super pissed off now and i got to be at rina's house by 845 ahh the horror am so not in the mood to blog right now.just reached home from the airport and someone please tell me how the hell am i supposed to take photos tomorrow when my camera is dead.gosh this day is much worst than friday the thirteenth save for that treat from wai chiew.damn this stupid boy at church seriously has issues he kept turning around to stare at jerome and i in church i really wonder what in the world is his problem.i guess he so should get shot down or something doesnt he know that staring is rude.tsk

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Saturday, November 25, 2006

10:29 PM

walked till my feet really hurts.especially now.went high and low looking for my stupid red heels but could not find any or should i just say that they did not have my size.fuck what is the world coming to.so i got a pair of brown boots from topshop instead yes baby they are the sex!however i somehow managed to find a new big red trolley bag for my london trip.looks really big though but i somehow think that the bag is way to small for me to fit all my stuffs think i might need to get yet another bag on my way bag as seriously i filled up one whole entire bag just for my four day three night camp.heh sorry well it is just really hard for me to pre plan what do i want to wear so i just end up bringing everything and yes i really mean everything.HAHAHAHA.o and i am so no longer going to wear my black printed dress for graduation as guess what i managed to find a nice pretty yellow one today and yes it is still high waisted and very very VERY nice.though i must say i am still looking for that really nice corset though but am somehow not able to find one nice enough and yet flattering when i wear it.fuck it wanted to buy another pair of jeans today but guess what they no longer have my size!the horror fuck that person who took the last of my size.ahhh i so want to cry now!i need another pair of jeans soon and i mean very soon otherwise i really think i will so go crazy even before you know it.i so think i am suffering from some really bad denim addiction.o no i think i am a denim whore.HAHAHA.owells that is what many of my friends say of me.going to do my nails tomorrow.FINALLY after what seems to be like 1398556758 years i think my nails are totally warped up they just look so completely disfigured.damn please please fix them for me tomorrow.going to be doing a french manicure and a french pedicure.well really never tried doing it french before so i suppose it will be very nice.yay!for graduation:hotel room confirmed,dress confirmed,shoes confirmed,nails soon to be confirmed.owells i guess now all that is left is hair and makeup and the need to find a suitable handbag.grad is so making me go broke.o and alcohol!someone please tell me we are going to club on monday say yes say yes.i need to club badly the urge for much more hot guys to be in my life.which reminds me i so have to somehow figure out a way that i would be feel so tired as i am so going to be celebrating the day on monday that i most probably will end up sleeping at 5 as usual and i have to be at work at 830 the next day.the horror!i need tips on how to remain awake NOW!anyone anything?i am all ears man!

so the love (:

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Friday, November 24, 2006

4:05 PM

what a rush today just got everything fixed up and went to alter some of my jeans.HAHA the shop owner was talking to me about trs.HAHA.yes i love my trs thank you very much out of which reminds me that i need to add more jeans into my collection.woots.yay all hail jeans they are the love.london in about two and a half weeks time and i still have so yet to get my clothes ready anyway my grandmama gave me money to buy clothes to bring there woots love and i now have 200pounds in my bag given by all the various sexy people!yay!i'll gladly accept more money from anyone who is willing to pass me more!anyway sasha babyy you so better study hard for my mocks you can do it babe!anyway might be going over to the airport later with my dad to welcome the singapore olympics group.HAHAHA funny owells teo chee hien will be there so i guess that will be pretty cool.bought a chelsea jersey for alex!yay one present down many more to go gosh i am so going to get so broke due to christmas shopping.sigh.grad is in on like monday and i am SO not looking forward to it.owells hopefully we can get a makeup stylist in time though i think it is not likely as i guess now it is pretty last minute but our hotel room is booked!thanks baby girl.are we bringing alcohol?lets just get totally wasted this time round.damn that means now we so have to go alcohol shopping.ahhhh shit i just realised i cannot get that wasted i have a job interview the next day!ahhh the horror somebody please shoot me now.well people guess what i just managed to get a job at i shant say.HAHAHA.but yea turns out that i most probably will be one of those people at the frontline which in other words means i will be able to mingle with the various tourists who visit and all.hot guys!swooons.HAHA.well lets just hope that everything will turn out as planned and really fun.turns out that i get free entry throughout this whole people hurrah fellas that is just so rocking.honestly i somehow just cannot wait to start work as working means earning money earning money means more shopping more shopping means a much happier jessica.now we're talking babyy.sigh my life so needs to get a happening boost alrights i am just so talking crap.but yea so babyy shold we shag now or should we shag later?

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Thursday, November 23, 2006

10:48 PM

Venez avec moi, restez la nuit ou vous dites les mots mais garcon il ne sentent pas la droite ce qui vous s'attendent a ce que je vous dise (vous savez il est trop peu trop tard simplement) prise ma main, et vous parole vous avez changee mais garçon vous connaissez votre beggin 'ne me dupe pas puisqu'a vous il est juste un jeu (vous savez il est trop peu trop tard simplement) ainsi m'a laisse sur vers le bas causer le temps m'a rendu me fort commence a me passer vais dire ceci maintenant votre chance est venue et alle et vous savez que c'est A trop peu trop defunt juste peu trop mal et je ne peux pas attendre le garcon vous savez tous les les bonnes choses pour vous dire (vous savez il est trop peu trop tard simplement) parole vous reve de mon visage mais vous ne m'aiment pas vous juste comme la chasse etre vrai, elle n'importe pas de toute facon (vous savez il est trop peu trop tard simplement) j'etait jeune et dans l'amour je vous ai donne tout mais il n'etait pas asse'et maintenant vous voulez communiquer (vous savez il est trop peu trop tard simplement) allez trouvaille quelqu'un d'autre dans le lettin que vous allez, je suis lovin moi-meme vous avez obtenu au probleme mais ne venez pas askin je pour le ya de cause d'aide connait que c'est A trop peu trop defunt juste peu trop faux et je ne peux pas attendre le garcon vous connaissez toutes les bonnes choses pour vous dire (vous savez il est trop peu trop tard simplement) parole vous reve de mon visage mais vous ne m'aiment pas vous juste comme la chasse etre vrai, elle n'importe pas de toute facon (vous savez il est trop peu trop tard simplement) je peut aimer avec tout mon bebe de coeur que je connais que j'ai tellement pour donner (j'ai tellement pour donner) avec un joueur comme vous, je n'avez pas une priere qui est la maniere de vivre, ouais OH

il est au-dessus de ce qui s'est produit m'a produit sait vous pensez vous m'avez juste ecrase mais le garcon vous sont ainsi wrong.i AM non votre chiot malade d'amour moyen comme la plupart des autre girls.unlike plus d'eux je suis indcpendants et I et me dcplace par les petits amis une fois de myself.like i avancent et vont mais les petites amies dernier forever.to je vous sont justes mais une phrase dans ma vie rien plus que cela et maintenant je peut continuer vivre cela le style de vie insousiant qu'I une fois had.waune vous remercient de me donner cette libertc encore et cette fois je vraiment ne pense pas que nous devrions rester des amis comme dont pourrait juste l'etincelle de beaucoup de frottement et de polemique ainsi de yea vous remercier en m'aidant dcveloppez-vous d'une manicre mais juste vous vous faites savoir le va te faire foutre que je ne vous veux pas en arriere.juste comme ce que j'ai dit que plus tot vous avez eu votre chance mais maintenant il est trop peu trop tard

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

3:09 PM

je vraiment ne vous obtiens pas a cet anymore.what que ladite nuit passee montre vraiment que tout que sont arrives les moyens rien a vous la droite now.it est vraiment sourd-muet pour penser qu'au commencement j'etais celui qui vous jouait mais pourtant en ce moment vous a juste tourne votre de nouveau a fait l'exact la meme chose a me.funny sur la facon dont je vraiment ne vous fais plus confiance mais l'amour est base sur trust.it est si evident que vous l'aimiez mais vous sont mensonge juste directement a mon face.if vous ne l'aimez pas et ne lui parlez pas meme satisfaites eh bien me dites diable est son image faisant dans votre handphone.stop se trouvant je ne suis pas celui sourd-muet car vous etes juste si facile de vous lire art de l'auto-portrait se livrant foutu bastard.yet que vous prevoyez que j'a comme vous toujours par l'essai de me menacer par tout votre shit.listen ici et d'ecouter clairement aucune volonte de maniere je se change jamais juste pour convenir a vos besoins pourquoi pas vous changez pour me.who la baise vous pensez l'am?someone de I juste pour aider a vous faire sortir des problemes chaque fois et pour aider le reseau you?seriously vous n'etes pas mon type juste quelqu'un que j'emploie temporairement juste pour me faire la sensation happier.you m'a demandee de vous aimer avec tout mon coeur mais honnetement vous avez fait l'arret du same?not likely.please pensant que je suis maintenu dans l'obscurite du tout cela se produit et serieusement personne ne feraient tels pour l'amusement quand elles savent qu'il est tout a fait probable que quelqu'un finisse juste vers le haut du mal de sentiment.je n'ai aucune idee si tout ceux-ci que je suis intervenus est vraiment du tout en valeur it.sometimes que je devine laissante disparaissent est probablement une des choses les plus dures dans le world.maybe qui est pourquoi beaucoup de gens sont juste emprisonnees dans leur propre baise de world.but je vraiment me demande si si je continue par ceci ainsi suis il heure de le casser juste off.i savent que je merite mieux et la maniere il me traite soit comme la baise il ne repond pas meme mes messages parce qu'il reclame qu'il est trop lazy.i vraiment se demandent est tout ceux-ci en valeur l'ennui ou devrait j'obtenir de nouveau a mon style de vie simple habituel et all.it est vraiment drole comme il connait que je n'aime toujours pas tels mais pourtant lui le fait que je vraiment me demande est lui sur le but mais de l'autre cote il est aussi plutot possessif et collant a times.it peut agalement obtenir plutot ennuyant qu'il obtient allume cela souvent que parfois je vraiment me demande ce que la baise je signifient a him.ahhh asshole.ahh vous savez que ce qui oublient ils laissent juste le donner jusqu'au temps ou je vole au loin s'il ne change pas alors trop mauvais son excedent pendant que meme mes amis m'interrogent sur diable suis moi faisant avec un tel "perdant"

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

2:11 PM

gosh this is your idea of something fucking funny.quaiyum just messaged me and guess what from a supposed fireman captain he is now a paramedic due to his childhood asthma history.no worries boy i am sure you will so rock at giving cpr to people.HAHAHA.well but at least not he gets to book out of camp early.funniness anyway so just friends on friday ya?lately i just have been reading up on stuff about war.it is really sad just to see how war can escalate due to the selfishness of the government for power and when countries just want to show it's superiority.little do they know that in fact by doing such many lives are lost and families are torn apart.it really touched my heart when i recalled that oprah previously arranged a baby shower for all those women whose husbands were in the army and cannot spend time with them just to nurse their kids.it just really breaks my heart to know that in this world many children this days are just living each day without their parents by their side.if it were me i doubt i will be able to pull through each day.i guess it is just really hard for them.gosh if the world was at peace and there is no need for such perhaps it will save many from the heartaches and all.ahhh i just wish i can help these kids man.it is just really sad as not only that they also always live in constant fear of what might just happen to their dads or moms in the battle field.anyway watch this video it is really really touching.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TXBtwXRZzt0
admit it you just want to cry when you watch that video and to all those parents out there at the frontline this one goes out to you!

I SALUTE YOU!

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

1:31 AM

finally the whole she-bang is over i have no idea what to feel sad?not really expected such relieved?perhaps.owells JASS dont be evil laah and go for butter factory with me on the 30TH!!

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

11:46 PM

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house, that don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry
Every once in a while even though goin on with you gone still upsets me
There are days
Every now and again i pretend i'm okay but that's not what gets me
What hurts the most, was being so close
And having so much to say
And watchin you walk away
Never knowing, what could have been
And not seein that lovin you
Is what i was tryin to do
It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere i go
But i'm doin it
It's hard to force that smile when i see our old friends and i'm alone
Still harder gettin up, gettin dressed, livin with this regret
But i know if i could do it over
I would trade, give away all the words that i saved in my heart that i left unspoken
What hurts the most, is being so close
And having so much to say
And watchin you walk away
Never knowing, what could have been
And not seein that lovin you
Is what i was tryin to do

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

3:39 PM

reached home at about 3:30 this morning.yeah i know pretty early but yea my friends all left early so i definitely cannot be dancing there by myself now that would just be so totally warped up.the crowd was definitely not too bad.went there with yunxuan,gladys and tim the other guys could not make it.pretty funny though while the rest all went to check out the boxing match we went to chill out and played some really dumb game at pure lets see the entire bed was filled with ice and ice were being stuffed down people's tops,pants,up skirts and all.helluva fun and yes everyone jessica did not get drunk this time!headed quite late to the dance floor and gosh it was more croweded than vaunt but the crowd was the love.danced on the stupid platform which was like a total moshpit and i saw my dear thrishna there.i miss her so.met this group of guys there out of which until now the girls are still whining that we did not take down their numbers.HAHA.funny shites though i really must say that they were HOT.met the whole bunch of people there AGAIN and managed to catch up with aster and the rest though i think **** is irritating still.owells.babe!we didnt get to dance together.30th set man baby girl?well thank god i didnt bother to lend xijie's friend my id stupid girl got caught.HAHAHA and alex's friend got banned though i must say that just so sucks.quite happy that i went there yesterday though what a great place for socializing and catching up.quite a well selling party overall pffffts kinda regret not doing it now.ahhh the horror.anyway my dear bitch rina is back.shopping trip SOON girl and this time i really will not talk to you again if you were to cancel on me.HAHA.london is less than three weeks can so hardly wait party like crazy in london babyy especially since it'll be straight after my god sis's mocks.rock on sisterrr!!

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

8:51 AM

For attractive lips, speak words of kindness.
For lovely eyes, seek out the good in people.
For a slim figure, share your food with the hungry.
For beautiful hair, let a child run his or her fingers through it once a day.
For poise, walk with the knowledge you'll never walk alone.
People, even more than things, have to be restored, renewed, revived, reclaimed, and redeemed so never throw out anybody.
Remember, if you ever need a helping hand, you'll find one at the end of your arm. As you grow older, you will discover that you have two hands, one for helping yourself, the other for helping others.
The beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, the figure that she carries, or the way she combs her hair. The beauty of a woman must be seen from in her eyes, because that is the doorway to her heart, the place where love resides.
The beauty of a woman is not in a facial mole, but true beauty in a woman is reflected in her soul. It is the caring that she lovingly gives, the passion that she shows, and the beauty of a woman with passing years only grows!

another fight yet again.gosh we sure do always fight for the strangest reasons ya i know talk about juvenile i sure do admit that i am one sometimes.i cannot stand being threatened and so on if you think you are too fucking perfect and all to actually accept me and let me have my own opinions in life then seriously i would rather lose a friend than to keep listening to you constant condemnations of me.i do not deserve this,i deserve much more so screw this shit i will not tolerate anymore of your lame ass excuses even a child knows better than this.who the fuck do you think i am some 24hour standby for your whiney ass?please get this straight more than half the time i just do not care.so please do me a favour and just get a life.

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Tuesday, November 21, 2006

10:42 AM

what crap please seriously talk about stupidity i think my school is seriously warped up or something please tell me who in the in the right mind would actually wake the students up at like seven something in the morning so they can be in school by 8:30 just to listen to some lame ass HALF AN HOUR talk and go home.seriously many of us do not even qualify for the three months jc thing yet we still had to go for that crap why in the world had they not thought of emailing us or something havent they ever heard of this word technology?i think my school really has an issue or something the teachers have completely lost it this time.owells many people especially those lower secondary friends of mine often ask me what exactly is the right age for one to get attached.well i guess just so long as you are comfortable with the guy and think that you actually like him and he likes you too.well then you have a winner.yes no doubt many would say that this is what you would call puppy love but hey some people actually ends up marrying their first boyfriend/girlfriend.so i would say take that chance and say yes to that bugger.personally i had my first when i was fifteen hmmm not too long ago too but yes.i guess being in a relationship is based on chance and trust.if you trust him and all that is good and if you are lucky enough your partner will not be a bastard.HAHAHA.yes for once i hope i am actually talking sense.anyway didnt go for that barbacue thingy in the last yesterday why?it rained and thus it was all wet and slimey with insects and all definitely not something which i am a fan of.so yea well we did manage to finish all eighty satays.30 for my family,30 for uncle mohan's family and yes congrates mel on your twins babe that is just so simply hot imagine twins.that is so the love.HAHA and 20 for the wonderful security guards yes we so can think of ways to give satay sticks away.HAHAHA.so got to make passport later i will be leaving on a jetplane in like three weeks and i am passportless yes tell me about it.aww wells surge is on later and this time i so do not intend on drinking much.learnt me lesson that time.awww i need more hot guys in my life.woots sexy sexya people.anyway check out this picture which i found online just could not help laughing once i saw it.it is what i would call fucking hilarious!

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Monday, November 20, 2006

1:21 AM

how nice it's like raining now.how all the damn food please somebody please tell me how in the world am i supposed to eat like eighty satay sticks.that is just like nuts seriously.ahhh damn the rain why in the world must it rain today of all days man.pfffts this totally sucks big time.bad day bad timing man.anyways xijie came over just now.gosh spent like practically every second online doing crap and just playing games.alright i guess currently i am just way too pissed off to blog or do anything.ahhh damn the rain.though aster said that the barbacue is definitely still on due to the already cooked and purchased food.ahhhh lets just hope that there will be sheltered ares there.ok currently i so do not have the mood to even go for the stupid thang.ahhh the rain just killed my mood.anyway my friend just told me that i am a good ****** HAHAHA what the hell fucking funny please.well on the bright side ipod gave me a new ipod!the old one had a defect so yeapp i think 4G nano is really too small.8Gplease mommy!

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Sunday, November 19, 2006

6:14 AM

woots watched the little shop of horrors yesterday and yes for once i finally now have a really different perspective on local productions as i must say it was really good especially the dim sum dollies.selena tan is marvellous.the production brilliant though the negative part about it is that you will not be able to understand it if you are not singaporean as much singlish and hokkien was used so yeapp definitely not one for the foreigners.well church went pretty well today though it's pretty sad that one of my cell leaders will be leaving due to his wife's pregnancy owells din tai fung next week so i guess that should be pretty good.yay barbacue tomorrow just ordered my eighty satay sticks so hope that would be enough as i bet there will end up having loads of free-loaders so yea.most come to the worst we shall just end up going to mcdonalds and buy food over.yea talk about a barbacue man.but thing is i still have not a clue on where is it.like seriously will someone just please tell me where in the world is the lighthouse.thanks aster the directions you gave me were like super vague please.anyway finally met up with my dear god father today.gosh i so meet him.we had TEA!how nice.anyway skiing is ON man andorra here i come.andorra is a sexah little place in between france and spain.now that is absolutely love.i dont think ill be bringing much clothes there.experience the nice weather there man!anyway i just read the best post ever check it out.
Ok, not really, I just wanted you to read! But I am guilty of PDA and Im not sorry for it. Im not sure when it started being controversial? or a topic that needed discussing, because I dont see it as an issue. If you ask me, I dont think theres enough of it going on.When I walk through the streets of Singapore, or go to the movies, or out to dinner, I always have a tendency to check out other couples out of curiosity. It seems to me that the only ones that show true affection are the teens. I remember having a boyfriend when I was 15 and I was sooooo in L-O-V-E. We were like siamese twins. Nothing couldve stopped us from holding hands or kissing each other whenever we felt like it. I was aware of the disapproving looks from the grown ups, but that wasnt going to stop me. And Im happy to say, that to this day, I still frolic around like a love-sick teenager with my man.But most couples dont. Sure, they sort of half-heartedly hold hands but I do that with my girlfriends. Maybe the general population arent comfortable with flaunting their desires, I dunno. And I understand that for some, hugging and kissing is something to be done in private. Fair enough. But I think the lack of PDA might also have to do with the fact that a lot of couples have lost the spark in their relationship. Theres no spontaneity left. The ho-hum has taken over and alas, theyve started to take each other for granted. Im not saying that PDA is a cure for this, but I think the LACK of PDA is a symptom.Now, before you start groping your partner in public, yes, I think there is a line that doesnt need to be crossed. No crotch-grabbing or visible tongues probing desperately please! I think thats just distasteful. But I do think that seeing a couple who are affectionate and loving with one another, who arent afraid to do a little necking, is awesome. If youre in love (or lust), what the problem with showing it a little? And lets face it, sometimes you just wanna make it clear that he/she is with ME so the rest of you can BACK OFF! So the next time you’re out with your partner, have a little intimate smooch and maybe a naughty touch on the bum. You might find you save your shopping money by going home earlier!
dont you just have to agree with that?!?

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Friday, November 17, 2006

2:21 PM

what a slack of day it is today it feels pretty odd that i am not even studying and come to think of it i feel like studying.warped up?yea pretty much i guess.so happens i am so totally not used to this whole exams are over fever as things so happens to feel every much the same.have been doing absolutely nothing today i so need to go out and do something man.anything would just make me feel very happy already.i so feel like a slob now.my boy's still having his papers how sad which means i can only see him on monday.ahhh the horror.HAHAHA.though i still cannot get over what happened last night man.it is just too queer to be true.owells am supposed to be like out with my bitches now but thanks to rina!!that stupid girl is like having facial now and she's meeting justin later.tsk what a friend man.HAHAHAH.o forgot to blog about it yesterday but i caught casino royale!damn i love his eyes like so much.it's just so damn blue.yes the new blue eyed boy of bond.though i must say the initial plot like the beginning and all was pretty good however the love scene was just so so so draggy i mean since when would bond ever like ever fall in love and since when will he ever resign just because of a woman.so out of place but i must say the girl looks super goth.anyway dont you find it really funny on how some people just always wants to act as though they are all that in front of you when in fact they are just like some dumb piece of shit.why do they always have to act all big and all look at **** damn everyone so hates him because of his ways please.he just acts all that when in fact he is nothing but a hypocrite.i really do hope that one day someone would just screw him over and make him lose thousands now that would so definitely teach him a lesson.what he hell who goes around telling everyone ayy fuck care about the money la im rich already.seriously that is just arrogance.maybe one day i should just pull the trigger on him.that might work though i think his ego will just in the end get the best of him such people i guess just put on a mask to hide their inner self as i remember when he did that call on him he was so scared and all and sounded just like a kid who had did something bad and was so urgghhh wrong yet funny.i guess all big guys are actually timid guys.funny.HAHAHAHA.shopping later how

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Thursday, November 16, 2006

8:54 AM

omg you know what it's over and i mean it it is finally over.thank god and what does that mean?no more studying until what seems to be like until next year.how awesome is that.though i still think that my happiness has yet to set in as owells perhaps that's because maybe this os just did not seem like os to me too.HAHAHA.well i guess that happens to almost everyone so yeapp betcha feeling that too bitch!anyway surge is up next week i so wonder whether will it be as nice as expected and you know what i always say find a guestlist spot even if it means killing you.seriously they say that it is going to be worst than vaunt.seriously worst than vaunt means you will not even be able to move about the crowd.ahhh hope we can breathe in there talk about carbon dioxide saturated.HAHAHA.ok then again maybe its cause ive not really been a fan of crowed places though i think the idea of many beautiful people doing their thang on the dancefloor is just so fucking sexy.yeah in a pretty subtle manner.admit it im sure many will agree to that fact.though in my opinion one should never club with their boyfriends no idea i just feel that one is just so likely to get jealous and that might just end up spoiling the whole night.think about it picture a girl going up to your bf.HAHA.now im sure you would get jealous.anyway im so thinking of going to butter factory man but dammit no one wants to go with me!ahhh so ya any takers for 25th and 30th.i want to see more beautiful people on the dancefloor!HAHAHA.anyway funny HE just called and talked to me about the times when we were still together.pretty awkward though aww wells that was the PAST!anyway bbq this coming monday.come to think of it 80 satays!wtf im just so going to be broke just because of satays.i wonder what are the rest bringing man.though sadly cant stay long.ahhh that's just so sad stupid jae admission talk im really contemplating on not going.should i or should i not?HAHAHA.owells bbq.what can i say it's a time to meet more beautiful people!yay damn 50 over people attending one bbq now that is just what i would call CRAZY!!!

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Monday, November 13, 2006

5:22 PM

thank goodness i do not take a math otherwise i'll be mugging my brain off right now and i thought both physics and chemistry would be enough to kill me already.no school today!woots which means a time to relax and yet still do my revision for physics which is like tomorrow.d'oh.that so sucks why in the world must my two most hated subjects physics and chem be back to back to each other.damn that means lesser time to study which so literally sucks.ahhh i NEED to do well.which means i have like three more rounds of tuition to go next before everything is finally over damn that so difinitely sucks big time.somebody save meme!big time!anyway so yesterday i saw the much talked about nicholas.well in fact he was definitely not what i expected him to look like.nerdy,fair and not my type like his brother.well in fact he looked quite good.not kidding just that his bag stinked yesterday and that was a turn off.HAHA.owells.i so cannot wait for that cocolatte date.but this time no more fancy dress ups for me i am like so over that i guess some people who think that dressing revealing and with all those fancy shitabangbang is like omg so hot and cute but seriously i think they just end up looking like sluts and whore no joke.take ****** and ******** for example gosh how juvenile.but owells i guess you just cannot stop them from dressing as such.in my opinion only some people can carry such off and is it definitely not them as they are just too short and all!how ahlianish but yea.aww wells beauty is in the eyes of the beholder.take for example when you go to a legal aged club notice that the people dont dress as such and yet they just so so damn freaking hot.you can just lick them.HAHAHA.but then again maybe people's sense of style changes as they grow up and which obviously some people are still living in a world which is manned by a bunch of 12 year olds.by the way asses!i might be going to meet pele in like one and a half weeks!a star,a legand and a superhero.gosh that is just like a dream come true like i said and always will say GO BRAZIL!!!

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Saturday, November 11, 2006

3:49 AM

to hear someone call you a slut is bad but you will just naturally laugh it off.however to hear such a thing coming out from your dad now that is really hurtful.currently i just so feel like strangling the hell out of him.i so do not want my depressive ways to come back yes again.i have promised myself that i am going to try to be happy and stay happy even if it means faking it.so yeah i think from now on i shall just not take what anyone says seriously.so yeah sorry folks but i guess at times the lifes people live are just a facade that we just have to get used to.anyway i managed to get tickets for the little shop of horrors.talk about happiness.just that now im just not too game on watching it with my dad.i dont know i just do not feel comfortable with him.owells lets just see how things will come about in the end.anyway saw a really fly handbag and shoes today.im so thinking of getting them.though ya that would so mean that i will be going broke really soon man.aww wells anyone willing be sponser me?im all down for takers.anyway im so looking for a job after my os im really in grave need for cash and the fact that my camera has died has made it so much worst.i need a camera for my london trip.guess i shall so leave that to fate.anyway xijie messaged me this really sweet message today.yes boy i love you too!HAHAHA.yes!cocolatte soon man.cant wait i so have not clubbed for what seems like a million years now.funny thing is that i actually miss it ALOT and i mean alot.so that is really something to look forward to.finally tomorrow's sunday a day which people can actually relax a little.though i have lit paper two the next day.am so banging hard on my lit to save me man.though subjective it might be but i somehow have more faith in it than my other subjects.well perhaps that is because im actually confident about it.after that lets see physics and chemistry and it is finally all over.gosh check this out it was actually said by my tuition teacher so go figure man. "i cant believe she wants to be a socialite please,obviously she has some backing from some powerful person.damn i sure wonder who she open her legs to"HAHAHA.funny please but i cant believe that my tutor actually said that man.HAHA.quite crude though and yea man i dont even say such things well at least to my teachers.yea man my tutors all kicks ass!woots no more geog and social for the rest of my life!everybody scream with me.i need to shop soon and i want THAT guess bag and shoes.will someone get them for me?please please pretty please =)

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Friday, November 10, 2006

9:57 AM

ahhh this damn blogger just deleted my earlier post.#%$!^&!!!owells nevermind i shall blog yet all over again.today's the last day of exams well for this week owells but still almost all the major papers are over save for lit paper two,physics and chem.ahhh i somehow feel as though a dead load has been taken off my shoulders.happiness which means technically i can start kicking back to relax.whew!anyways my life has been pretty fucked up lately.as much as i would not like it to be so i can be more focussed on the tasks at hand.recieved a message from my ex yesterday it appears to be such that he really wants to get back together though seriously that is just so not likely after all that he did and said that was seriously screw him please.what makes it even more queer however was that he called me ______ in the message so i really wonder what's he at this time as yes to me he is just a wannabe player.i guess getting together with him that time was the dumbest thing which i had ever did though i think it was mainly because i was having a rebound.but owells all is over.things has also been pretty warped up with my family too.i somehow just do not seem to be able to get along well with them these few days.everything just seems to be so chaotic and just so urghhh!it just pisses me off especially the times where we just disagree though i really try not to mean the words which i say but this time i guess that's where everything just starts to fall apart.anyway joy seems to be sick these few days man she's just so not herself ahhh i guess i just cannot get used to this crap.i want things to go back to its same old self at times i wonder is that just too much to ask?

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Thursday, November 09, 2006

1:16 AM

today's geog was the kind of paper which you would say on the surface it seems easy but deep down it is hard.seriously while writing the paper i was like o cow that's a hell load to write man.though i think practically half of it did not make any sense but owells lets just hope that the examiner somehow can make some wierd sense out of it i guess that is the most important man.if not im so dead.tomorrow's math paper two lets see paper one was pretty easy damn i sure hope that does not mean that paper two will be the killer.no no such can never happen i need to get 7 points!was talking to matt last night funny please turned out that i was the supposed blur one who did not know when the supposed bbq meeting was at.thankfully for him otherwise i would be the only one there on sunday.HAHA.but what the hell man three quarters of free-loaders so like just exactly how many satay sticks am i to bring again?damn satays sure i just going to make me so so so broke.no idea what time i will be staying until though seems like almost everyone will be there until the next day.but i doubt i can do that la as i have that joint admission exercise thingy the next day.ahhh the horror.yes i know im sure a party spoiler as usual man.owells not my fault.though aster said she wont be going for that supposedly compulsory thing but hey i also dont want to go to jc so why in the world should i go for it.HAHA.waste of time man.owells i shall see my mood man and more like see what time i reach home from that bbq.damn i hope there will be alot of hot guys though matt said that some of them are already attached.HAHAHA.but eye candies are always good.yay!though he said it might be a gay-fest so let me guess what will that mean.HAHA.plenty of eye candies!woots anyways cant wait for the 16th man.guess what i've got tickets to go watch casino royale's premier.yea babyy you heard me right it's the premier.how awesome stay envious suckers.damn should i go for surge or should i not.any advise guys?heard that the two supposed hunks are not hot at all.HAHAHA.owells.i need to go for a pedicure soon.note to self make appointment for perdicure spa treatment asap.ciao folks.MATHS TIME!!!

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Wednesday, November 08, 2006

12:18 AM

wooo english just ended today thank God that my school believes in giving us so much tough tough super tough comprehensions to do that this compre was actually much more manageable than expected which is VERY good so hopefully i can just bang real hard on it.summary was pretty much alright just that there just did not seem to be much points.in fact i was kinda freaking out as i thought i lacked the points though i could not find any to add in so i was pretty much just added linking words here and there to fill up that 150 word limit as i initially had like 136 words please.too little.anyways composition part was pretty alright though technically i thought that the topics to choose from were really really boring.i mean seriously what's with the health,environmental and dreams question and like seriously what do we do during our supposedly much acclaimed school holidays?what's with that please.though i was pretty much in between whether was that supposed report in the report format or was i supposed to write it in the form of a formal letter like what i had read in that model essays crap book.but anyways i ended up righting it in the report format so let's just pray really hard that it is right.anyway i quite get the fact on why some people are just so totally worked up over this o levels seriously i personally feel that they are just giving themselves too much unnecessary stress.i mean is sleeping late at like 2,3am doing you much good though yea you might say that you have been mugging like crazy but seriously do you actually retain everything which you have read?not likely as you are most probably too tired to recall everything.i guess the secret to everything is just to do things in moderation.what happens happens nothing can change that sometimes i think it's better to leave everything to fate that would just make things so much better and save us from that over bearing headache.maybe that way everyone will be much more peaceful.aww wells i just really hope and pray hard that i will be able to enter my much desired course and everything.otherwise i guess my folks might just end up sending me overseas.aww wells i guess that is not too bad.counting the days till everythings over man five more papers say it with me just FIVE more and im free to do what i want!anyway xijie is starting to irritate me with his monosyllabic replies ahhhh i just so wonder what is wrong with him.owells i just really hope that would go away soon as im just so not used to it.so longs suckers!

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Tuesday, November 07, 2006

12:41 AM

finally a new blogskin.just realised that im pretty happy that xijie and i made up.yea pretty strange that from what was initally supposed to be something that was meant to keep me from feeling lonely he became someone that i realised i really like.being with him can at times be a pain yet also something that warms me.i guess this whole thing is just a very complicated thing which i can never fully understand.owells i guess from now on we shall just leave it to whatever it may be.whatever happens i guess happens besides not like singlehood really sucks in fact it pretty much rocks.HAHA.alrights im just contradicting myself.i miss my friends from school and all.ever since the exams we really have not been communicating much.aww wells lets just pray hard that everything will change once the big o is over i can never imagine what life would become without anyone one of them.i guess that would be the time in which you would see my entire world crumble.anyway our date to vivo city is still on right girls.no backing out this time.you heard me sexayes.anyway am totally counting the days to the time in which i will be able to head down to london and meet my dear godsisters though technically that would be at the expense of my dearies.sigh what to do pity we can never have two good stuffs in life.well four more papers down six more to go but damn i think i have completely lost all mood and whatsoever to urge me on to study.i need motivation really badly more like i need motivation NOW!!counting the days that passes me by.ooo changed my blog address and skin.HAHA.anyone noticed?you might ask why'd i did such well let's just say it is a really long and complicated to the point of funny story.anyways so longs bitches (:

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Monday, November 06, 2006

8:15 PM

hurrah the most dreaded day is finally over.thank God.gosh yesterday math paper one and social studies.i almost died but turned out that math was pretty much as expected so i guess i have nothing much to worry about it.though the shocking part is that i finished the entire paper in one hour when it is supposed to be a two hour paper.so because of that i really do hope and pray that everything will just turn out smoothly and as what i hope for that i may get that a1 which i so badly wanted.yay for once jessica can count.hurrah.i was super worried about social man as that is the one subject which i can honestly say that i really did not put in much effort into studying it as gosh memorising stuff just kills me.but thankfully i heeded everyone's advice and not my teacher's to focus on merger and seperationg and guess what it came out.the only topic which i read through like 21437532times and it came out.i bet the teachers must have thought i was mad as i literally smiled to myself during the paper.warped up i know.pretty much i guess.owells next up is english.lets just hope that i can get my A1 babyy.english finally one subject which i actually like.so cannot wait for this week to be over.lets see english,geography and math paper 2 how sweet i guess they will all be quite managable.as for next week lets just pray hard that i wont screw up on anything.HAHA.ciao!

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Thursday, November 02, 2006

11:30 PM

damn havent blogged for what can i call 21498713516387 years.HAHA.owells the lit paper turned out pretty alright i guess although the questions were like what the hell.it was pretty shocking initially as my teacher has never once gone through such a question like that with us.but overall all i just hope is that i can somehow manage to attain an a.anyway this girl just added me on msn talk about queer.she's like asking me such odd questions and all.ahhh somehow totally freaking me out.anyway yall should go and catch step up man what can i say it's like the best show ever.though ya that's what i usually say but hey this one is different folks.no doubt about that think take the lead meets riverdance.yeapp now we're talking babyy.anyway how sweet my lovely godsiss has helped me to get my ski clothes.talk about freezing cold but damn this skiing thing is sure going to be helluva fun.guess maybe ill just end up snowboarding instead.wheeeeee alrighty o levels are so going to be over soon.cant wait it's time to party people.awesome anyway ravinder signed me up for the singtel fastest fingers thingy.HAHAHAA.gosh how cute but i guess i am so going to end up making a total fool of myself that day.i type slow la people!!!!

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